October 11, 2019 – 28 – “Grumpy Guru”

     I’m interested in spiritual practice.  Meditating.  Gratitude journaling. Prayer.  Walking in nature... 

     I'll try most anything to raise my vibe, deal with life in a more positive and calm way, and feel more connected to the Universe.

    Often I feel like I’m really growing.  Something stressful or frustrating will happen and there I am being all chill and calm.   In those moments I think:  “Damn!  I’ve got this!”

    Then there are those other times when it becomes painfully clear:  “Uh...I don’t got this.”

    A friend used to say being on the good end of the spectrum was being ‘all positive, and Unity, and shit.”  We were going to church at Unity then and trying really hard to focus on the good stuff.
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     I got another term for it from reading the book ‘Celestine Prophecy’.  It talked about people raising their vibe to such an extent that they ‘vibrated into pure light.’ 

    Wow!  That sounded soooo cool!  And, yeah, simultaneously a little weird.  And a little worrisome.  I mean, what if you're feeling so good you just suddenly vibrate into pure light by accident?
     
    Yikes!  Could that happen?

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Once I was trying to meditate and really struggling with all sorts of crazy thoughts coming up.  I'd told Michael I was going to go meditate but he, apparently, had forgotten...

Me:  (to myself) ‘Breath in.  Breath out.  Calmmmm….   Chill….  Breathe in….’  


Michael:  (from the next room) “Suuukkkiii!!!” 

Me: ‘Ohmmmm' (or equivalent) '...maybe he'll remember I'm meditating and stop calling for me.’

Michael:  “Suuuukiiiiiii...!”

Me:  ‘I'm all zen.  Breeeaaathe...  He'll figure this out.  But, damn it, I told him I was going to meditate.  Why is he yelling at me?  Geez!  I tell him all the time I hate it when he does this.  Not just when I'm trying to chill.  I mean I am not a dog.  If he wants to talk to me, he can darn well get up and come find me...  Ugh…forgot again.  Alright.  Bring it all back in.  Calm.  Peace.  Breathe in….breathe out…breathe...'

Michael:  “Hey Suk!  Where are you??”

Me:  ‘What the hell??  It's not my job to stop what I'm doing all the time.  He always does this!!  Grrrrrr!!  This is soooooo…. Wait!  It's okay.  Just ignore him and focus: Breathe in.  Breathe out.  Breathe in.  Breathe out.’ 

Michael:  “Hey...Sukkkiii...Where are you?????”

Me:  "MICHAEL, I'M  %@!&#^%*#*  MEDITATING AND YOU'RE DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!"

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    Yeah, ummm, the likelihood of me vibrating into pure light anytime soon is pretty much zip.  

     Oh well, the effort is worth it.  Breathe in.  Breathe out...

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"You've mastered the selfie.  Now master thy self." 

-Unknown

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"You should sit in meditation for twenty minutes every day - unless you're too busy then you should sit for an hour."

-Zen Proverb

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"If it weren't for my mind, my meditation would be excellent." 

-Pema Chodron

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"Just as it takes time for the mud in muddy water to settle, meditation only yields fruit if it is practiced regularly for a long time." 

-Dr. Prem Jagyasi 

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